There are times when nonconstructive criticism is thrown at you, being a sensitive little flower I am, it initially hurts a little. I receive about 1 hate email a week through my email form, and being human I read these emails of hate and feel rather sad, for they speak so much of why the world 'through my eyes' is just one big shit hole.

Let me share with you one of the recent emails:

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Your childish and ridiculous angst would seem foolish coming from someone age 20, let along some 40+. Your pseudo-intellectual bullshit doesn't impress anyone. You are doing nothing to help society. Grow up or stop wasting space on this earth. I am not surprised you lost your family.

I understand by having personal material about my life here for all to read isnt going to please everyone, quite the opposite. Its not about pleasing you, its my personal social experiment, letting go, making everything about me accessible and out in the open no matter how weird or pseudo-intellectual (fucken now love that word) it may seem to others. I have been taught to bottle up and to be afraid of expressing it for fear of being ostracised. By exposing all of me however flawed I may seem, allows me to put it all back together in a more productive and less self destructive way.

It is not about perfectionism and my desire to rejoin your cardboard world, its about finding my way to live minus your bullshit. So I guess I'm flattered that you think what I paint and write about is that important that you honour me with your attention.

The gutless thing about it all is you never leave your correct email address. Sometimes the truth causes us to lash out and defend ourselves so lash out, I do find it quite fascinating watching lab rats such as yourself react to a bit of moldy cheese.. In all seriousness my childish angst is my way of dealing with something that I struggle to understand, underneath the childishness is my way of handling genuine pain and confusion.

Getting these types of emails it makes me go harder with my art, to try and put a greater distance between you and me.

As to the 20 year old statement, pffft thought I was a lot more younger in the head, Steve you would have been closer if he had said 12 year old. Pseudo-intellectual??? now that's a compliment, me coming from working class background and being a concretor to boot. Not having a University degree I do not pretend anything of an intellectual nature, all I know is what I teach myself and am enlightened enough to know that means diddly squat in your world.

You are doing nothing to help society..... yep said that in my bio... tryin to work out how to help myself first before I make an effort to save the world...at least I'm upfront about it and am not ignorant or indifferent to the challenge.

Grow up or stop wasting space on this earth....shit don't think I will ever grow up, its what keeps me safe so I cant help you there Steve....

I am not surprised you lost your family. The last comment I have nothing to say in reply except I ask for that kind of comment by airing by dirty washing on the web..... to say such a comment belittles you and shows so much of who you are in the real world. (exactly why I live on the fringes of your society and disassociate myself from simplistic intellectual minds such as yours)

Hey This e-mail address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it or whoever the fuck you are, 'BREATHE No.2' my next painting is of 2 men kissing each other, showing affection and love towards each other something I know you have lacked since birth.....if you want to throw your homophobic views into the next email, sorry I am a hetrosexual like yourself, I do however have a deep and caring understanding of those minorities you mock from your self righteous pedestal, work that one out you fucking xenophobic intellectual moron!

Intellectual Steve's amazing insight into the Palestinian and Jewish conflict (link)

After reading some posts by yourself regarding the problems faced by both the Palestinian and Jewish peoples I also question your right to a purposeful space here on earth. Your comments about the rampage and killing and raping of children in Israel were enlightening and were also of pseudo-intellectual prominence, I am now truely understanding of your mindset and shall pity you and your Pat Buchanan dinosour book club friends and move on......... next please!